This is it.

im-the-one-who-kn0cks:

You know what, I wish I had friends. Because I don’t. I mean, people call me their friend, but are they really my friends. They never ask me to do anything, they always leave me for someone better, and constantly bitch about me. I mean, is that was friends do? I’m just sick of staying in every…

I decided to write a poem about me.

im-the-one-who-kn0cks:

There are many possible ways to start this, and I’m not just going to sit here and reminisce.

I want you to know what I’ve been through, I want you to feel like you’ve been there too.

I’ve been in so many bad places, and so many terrible phases.

I cut for about a year, it would’ve been longer…

there’s nothing better than looking at old self harm scars and thinking ‘fuck yeah, I beat you bitch’

memephobic:


hi dudes, basically im bored and i have a bunch of useless/useful websites that i want to share with everyone!!! so i spent a few hours making this list of all my fave helpful websites. yeya i hope you guys find these helpful! reblog and add this post to your ref or whatever
fashion, makeup, hair 
woah eyeliner trick
messy bun tutorial!?!
omg gradient lips tutorial
make up tips master post!
make up hacks
spoon tutorial
fashion guide/vocabulary
Super duper easy recipes 
chocolate brownie in a cup!!!
cookie in a cup!!!
all sorts of easy snacks
idk some apple thingy
chocolate stuff
25 hot chocolate recipes c:
36 kinds of ice blocks you can make
icing colouring guide
Writing/reading
alternatives to ‘said’
wanna know which author you write like?
need to remember a word?
read/post fanfics
read/post stories
some writing tips
emotions vocab chart
School help
how to look like you’re typing an essay
study tips
learn stuff on youtube!
how to survive the finals
math problem solver
another math problem solver
homework help
stress analyst 
when to sleep/wake up
free microsoft word alternative 
How to
improve self esteem
love yourself
make a fake tweet
make a gif
help someone with anxiety
Art/drawing/colouring blah 
how to draw hands
skin palette
how to draw folds
how to draw realistic hair
ruffles tutorial
plait/braid tutorial
SAI hair colouring tutorial
face angle and shading
how to colour
Tumblr
background masterposts here, here, here, here, here, here, here and here
pixels here, here, here and here
x kit
missing e
simple themes
HTML help
updates tab!
floating bubbles for your blog
post limit checker
When you’re bored
silk - interactive generative art
what should i do today?!?!
a list of movies with links
list of scary movies
list of teen movies
bunch of cool things
learn new things masterlist
Nice sounds
rain
nature sounds
coffee shop

memephobic:

hi dudes, basically im bored and i have a bunch of useless/useful websites that i want to share with everyone!!! so i spent a few hours making this list of all my fave helpful websites. yeya i hope you guys find these helpful! reblog and add this post to your ref or whatever

fashion, makeup, hair 

Super duper easy recipes 

Writing/reading

School help

How to

Art/drawing/colouring blah 

Tumblr

When you’re bored

Nice sounds

hearing noises again

noises scratching

in my head no 

i cant 

work

why is this

word vomit

i dont know fucking bracelt scratching on the fucking thing

fuck fuck fuck

frick

i want to]i dont fucking know there is nothing just typing nad stuff

might be having a breakdown

anexity attack

fuckign spelling and words and everything fuckin fuck everything

fucking mayday parade r making me fuckin sad seeing tjem live 

i dont want to ive

no no i do no no no noooooo id on t i do ont 

fuck

You don’t give a fuck

It’s like, nobody fucking gives a shit so, why bother? like, as soon as you feel like someone cares about you they just fuck off again like every other fucker. genuinely can’t stop crying and you don’t even notice. ‘are you okay?’ ‘no nr’ ‘awww :(’ not ‘why?’ or ‘what’s happened?’ not even a drop of concern of sympathy and everything we’ve both been through I would’ve thought there’d be a little more compassion than that really. like, do you even care at all?

You literally couldn’t give any less of a shit about me could you?

You talk to me like absolute shit. You treat me like absolute shit. All I ever do is be there for you and you just throw it all back in my face and I’m fucking sick of it. I can barely even think of a time you’ve been there for me after all the shit I’ve been through. It’s like I don’t even exist to you and we’ve been sharing a room for god knows how many years on and off. You’re really, really selfish you know? It’s like no one else matters but you. You don’t give a shit about anything else but you. How many times have I sat there and talked to you as you cried? How many times have I given you advice even though you don’t fucking listen to me anything? How many time have I BEEN THERE FOR YOU?! Fucking tonnes, that’s the answer. Ask those same questions to you about me and he answer would be probably, about once. I don’t understand how I can mean this little to you after all this time, after being related to you? After being SO close to you, I still feel like I’m not good enough for you. I feel like I shouldn’t even exist right now. Earlier you didn’t want me to go out with you and your friend so you called what you were doing ‘the thing’ so I didn’t know? ‘are we still doing that thing?’ oh seriously? I wouldn’t want to hang out with you and your mates anyway, because they turn you into a right bitch. You treated me like shit tonight and even after all that when you’d been crying I still asked what was up, but did you talk to me? No. You never do anymore, I’m just worthless to you. You really did treat me like shit tonight, and I’ve gotta say I hate you for that right now.

Gr

fucking hell you stress me out even now